I don’t like giving people that much power over me. That’s why I don’t’ want to attach myself that much because when I do, I always end up feeling vulnerable. And I don’t want people to see that side of me.

"They didn’t know what it was but they were happy. And it was all that mattered."
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This photo deserves a separate post. <3 Hehe candid.
Photo by: John Cyril Yee :)

This photo deserves a separate post. <3 Hehe candid.

Photo by: John Cyril Yee :)

"There was an indescribable pain in seeing the joy in their faces. It felt wrong for so many reasons. I just can’t figure out why. Why?"
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When I was invited as a speaker for the CAL NSTP culminating activity, I immediately said yes. An opportunity like that doesn’t always come by so I didn’t want to miss it. It was an opportunity for me to share my thoughts and past experiences back when I was also one NSTP student.

Looking back, I really enjoyed my NSTP days. Not everyone doesn’t feel like that so I’d like to believe I was lucky. We had an amazing professor and I was with an amazing class. My blockmates and I became good friends despite being in different majors. Each one of us was also moulded to become better leaders. Our nstp class had a pool of potential leaders. And I didn’t know before that the people i’d normally sit in class with would be the next CSC President, the next USC Officer, the next organization leaders and ambassadors. I for one also became an officer myself and the networks that we built during our NSTP really helped me in my work.
When I spoke in front of the freshmen students of CAL, I felt a bit nostalgic. They reminded me of my younger years in college. I can see the eagerness in their eyes and I can feel the excitement whenever they smiled. They reminded me of the thirst and hunger to fulfill the dreams that each of them desired. They reminded me of me. Because once upon a time I was also like them listening attentively and dreaming big dreams.

For a moment I felt like I was no longer speaking about the NSTP experience but rather my experience as a whole. And I really felt proud of them, like an older sister taking pride of her younger siblings.

For almost all the freshman, surviving NSTP also meant surviving their first year in college. And I can’t wait to see them grow as leaders of the university.

She also needs her solitude, for she needs to understand  herself.

She also needs her solitude, for she needs to understand herself.

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3:14

This will probably be the longest time that I’ll be away from home. Two months. I try to repeat it every once in awhile hoping that it’ll finally sink in but it hasn’t. Not even a bit. It feels weird because I’m used to being away from home because of the trainings and seminars that I participate in. But this time it just feels different. For the first time in my life I can feel the loneliness of being far from the people you love. For the first time I can feel like i’m missing out on things. I can feel people drifting away and I can see that they are happy with that.
And I try to be happy for them as well.
It has always been like that.

Summer adventures will be posted soon. :-)

Summer adventures will be posted soon. :-)

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It’s my bucketlist! :D

Reblogging this for fun. :-) Sana ay may ma cross out na ulit dito.

My Mom and I had a little conversation about the things I want to do in my life. I told her that I want to make the most out of it. I want to go on adventures, learn new stuff and do certain things. So in order to keep track of all the things I want to do, I decided to make my own bucketlist. I hope to accomplish everything in this list. :)

  • Learn how to ride a bike.
  • Learn how to swim.  May 13, 2012. Story fresh from Sorsogon :)
  • Learn to play a musical instrument.
  • Climb a mountain!
  • Go on a roadtrip with friends. May 15,2012 We went to Vera and Busay falls.
  • Fly sky lanterns. April 23, 2013 2nd NDRR-CCA YLT Cagraray Eco Park, Misibis Bay, Bacacay, Albay
  • Fly sky lanterns on my birthday.
  • Watch a fireworks display on my birthday.
  • Celebrate my birthday with the less fortunate.
  • Get my first paycheck from blogging/writing.
  • Buy a gadget with my own money.
  • Buy my own domain. February 24, 2014
  • Zipline.
  • Be a speaker in a seminar/lecture. March 15, 2014 CAL NSTP Culminating Activity
  • Join a mob dance.
  • Try snorkeling.
  • Try kayaking.
  • Be healthy and fit.
  • Weigh 100 lbs or less.
  • Dye my hair blonde or red. 
  • Go rock climbing.
  • Ride a roller coaster. SOLO.
  • Read at least one hundred books.
  • Collect at least one hundred books.
  • Own a ChowChow <3
  • Create my own documentary.
  • Be awarded with a plaque.
  • Cook one dish.
  • Pass through a hanging bridge.April 25, 2013 2nd NDRR-CCA YLT @ Cagraray Eco Park, Misibis Bay, Bacacay, Albay
  • Learn drifting.
  • Interview or be interviewed by a famous personality. March 7, 2014 Interviewed Dr. Fay Lea Patria M. Lauraya, Bicol Uniiversity President for our talk show - HOTSEAT
  • Write a book.
  • Have a photo timeline.
  • Own a polaroid camera.
  • Visit one of the seven wonders of the world.
  • Be able to speak a foreign language, not counting english of course. ;)
  • Have the winning goal in soccer.
  • Write letters to future boyfriend.
  • Watch a movie alone in the movie house.
  • Make it to the dean’s list.
  • Earn an academic award in the University.March 14, 2014 University Recognition Day
  • Make my own dress.
  • Sleep under the stars with someone special.February 5, 2014, Sleepover with LLR Reporma <3
  • Find a lucky penny.
  • Watch a concert.
  • Watch all seasons of Friends.
  • Go on a masquerade party. August 1, 2013 - CAL Acquaintance Party
  • Be seen on TV. (And see myself on TV) 
  • Play in the rain while wearing one of my best clothes.
  • Dance under the moonlight, or   July 24, 2013, Busan, South Korea
  • Dance with someone even if there’s no music :)
  • Have a charcoal painting of my self.
  • Get a VIP pass.July 18, 2012 - Albay Youth Summit by Globe
  • Ride a chopper.December 3, 2012 - Youth LEAP goes to Bicol/TOG 5
  • Go Island hopping.
  • Break the rules. March 26, 2014 - My Over The Bakod Experience
  • Watch a horror movie on 3D.
  • Win in any contest/blog giveaways online  May 9, 2013 - Tin Iglesia’s Blog Giveaway
  • Visit Europe.
  • Get lost at NYC.
  • Graduate with latin honors.
  • Ride a Ferris Wheel. A big one! March 31, 2014 - Star City with my Sister
  • Sing in front of a crowd and have fun, even if i sound shitty.
  • Collect music albums.
  • Watch all Star Wars movies.
  • Eat smores during a campfire.
  • Visit famous landmarks in Asia.
  • Attend a National Convention. October 24, 2012 36th YMCA National Youth Congress 
  • Attend an International Convention. July 8-26, 2013 ASIA SUMMER PROGRAM 2013
  • Create a time capsule.
  • Climb a lighthouse.
  • Get my license.
  • Donate blood.
  • Meet the President of the Philippines.
  • Meet the President or any high ranking official of other countries.
  • See the Aurora Lights.
  • Experience snow.
  • Experience the beauty of Cherry Blossoms in full bloom
  • Manage a business.
  • Go to Disneyland. 
  • Find the happiest place on earth. :)

Will add more to this list, soon. :)

10:36

It’s when you know something very important- something others don’t know that you tend to question the fairness of this world. When you say something about it you’ll end up looking bitter. When you keep mum about it, you’ll be as naive as everyone else. Hypocrites are everywhere. They tell you things you want to hear and keep their agenda hidden. They’re foolish people taking advantage of your innocence. It’s simply frustrating and very disappointing in my part and also to those who seek the truth.

Here’s to the lack of better judgement that people have settled for.