What I fear most in the world is not death, it’s oblivion. I mean why fear something that is bound to happen to all of us? Death is practically there whether you like or not. But to be forgotten by people whom you’ve treasured greatly would bring the greatest heartbreak ever. And the question of whether or not people would remember me is the question that keeps me up almost every night.
I remember my Literature Professor said during one of our class discussions “Great poets don’t die, they just pass away”. These people have created something that made an impact to the society. I’m not saying that I want to be famous so that I can be remembered by people. The great poets in the world have created things that immortalized themselves. And I think that these things that would immortalize us need not to be known throughout the world. It can be simple things or simple actions that can create a huge impact to people, even if it’s just to one person.
I have doubted myself many times including my purpose for pursuing servant leadership. When things become so hard and exhausting, I would always ask myself if people actually appreciate the things that I am doing. And when I think about it, maybe the reason why I’m so eager in helping others despite the stress that it brings me (most of the time) is because I want them to remember me. Maybe not by my name and obviously not for the recognition. I just want these people to go forth their lives and look back at the time when the loud bubbly girl with dimples has helped them and made them smile. Serving my fellow students is probably one of the most challenging jobs in the world but it’s certainly one of the most rewarding. And whenever I see people happy because of the things I did, it also makes me happy and hopeful. Hopeful that this person who’s laughing genuinely because what I did would remember me for the rest of his life. This is one of the things I want people to remember about me- the girl who made them smile.
Every day is an opportunity for us to create an impact and immortalize ourselves. This can be in big majestic actions or just the small genuine ones. Me? I’m just trying my best just to make an impact to the lives of the people around me in the simplest way. They may not remember my name or how I look, I just want them to remember the things I did and how I touched their lives. If all these things are accomplished then I can truly say that I have lived a good life. And dying won’t be scary. Because the goal in life is not to live forever, it’s creating something that will. In my case, it’s the memories of good deeds and kindness shared to the people around me.