"There’s this mild torture in not hearing from you before going to sleep."
"Casting out the darkness in my life may sound impossible. But knowing that I’ll be facing every challenge with you by my side is more than enough for me."
I don’t like giving people that much power over me. That’s why I don’t’ want to attach myself that much because when I do, I always end up feeling vulnerable. And I don’t want people to see that side of me.
"There was an indescribable pain in seeing the joy in their faces. It felt wrong for so many reasons. I just can’t figure out why. Why?"
This will probably be the longest time that I’ll be away from home. Two months. I try to repeat it every once in awhile hoping that it’ll finally sink in but it hasn’t. Not even a bit. It feels weird because I’m used to being away from home because of the trainings and seminars that I participate in. But this time it just feels different. For the first time in my life I can feel the loneliness of being far from the people you love. For the first time I can feel like i’m missing out on things. I can feel people drifting away and I can see that they are happy with that.
It’s when you know something very important- something others don’t know that you tend to question the fairness of this world. When you say something about it you’ll end up looking bitter. When you keep mum about it, you’ll be as naive as everyone else. Hypocrites are everywhere. They tell you things you want to hear and keep their agenda hidden. They’re foolish people taking advantage of your innocence. It’s simply frustrating and very disappointing in my part and also to those who seek the truth.
Here’s to the lack of better judgement that people have settled for.
Three years in the making.
Three years ago, I entered the university with the sole desire of graduating as Cum Laude. It sounded so good to me, as if it was music to my ears. MONTALLANA, INY M. Cum Laude. The idea may sound silly, but still it was attainable. And from that day forward, I decided that I would focus on my academics. But it only took a few weeks before the opportunities started coming. I don’t know what happened or how it happened, before I knew it, I was taking a completely different path.
You’re my only real friend, Let’s not ruin it. -Sally, The Art Of Getting By
"There are a lot of things I want to do but it wouldn’t be complete if I don’t do it with you."
I know I’m not the smartest, but I’m definitely not dumb. And if there’s one thing I want to do, that is to look out for myself so that I don’t get hurt. I don’t want to experience the same thing that has caused me pain. Who would even want that? Perhaps that’s one of the reasons why I over think and I always end up having presumptions. It’s difficult, you know? Like every time you’d like to try something new and give something or someone a shot you’ll always compare the experience to something you’ve once felt and you’d compare it to the road you’ve once walked in and then you’ll just back out. You’ll back out because you know how things will go and how it would end. People say that I’m one of the bravest people that they have ever met, but i’d like to think otherwise. I’m not saying it because of self-pity, I’m saying it because I really think, that in most aspects, i’m one of the most cowardly people ever to have existed on earth. And in order to secure myself from the dangers of the world, I’ll just stay here and avoid the things that would often lead me to the same heartbreak I’ve experienced a few years back. Sure I can manage other things, but when we talk about things like these, I’d rather stay in my comfort zone. I’ll stay here until someone can finally convince me it’s okay to try something new. Until someone can also look out for me.