"If you want to leave, leave. But do know that when you do, there’s no coming back. You won’t see me hanging there waiting for some miracle to happen because God knows I wasn’t born to be your second option."
Friend: If you know the other person might not just hold on for too long in a long distance relationship, would you still risk it?
Me: Yes. Because it's love. And you're not supposed to limit yourself when you love a person. Even if you know that it might not last in the long run, at least you know you've spent your time well with them, because you know you showed them you love them.
You’ll be hearing the same things from different people but only one can make you feel the sincerity in those words. And I know that It’s not easy to manifest your feelings for someone, that’s probably one of the reasons why people opt to just make someone feel their love instead of just saying it out loud. However, it wouldn’t hurt to tell them you love them once in awhile. It may sound cheesy, but it’s true, and that’s all that matters.
I can talk in front of a crowd, I can make an impromptu speech, I can even answer a question spontaneously yet I will always find it difficult to talk about the way I feel about someone, especially when it comes to you. I used to be the type of person who can speak out her mind and be firm with her decisions, but when it comes to you, I always seem to falter.
Despite being open in sharing my opinion about certain issues, I will always find myself holding back whenever I’m supposed to open up about my feelings for you. I’m not usually “open” when it comes to those kind of stuff. Believe it or not, I’m a reserved person, at least when it’s about my personal relationships. I get shy whenever people ask me about how I feel so I usually avoid those kind of conversation. But then again, you have this certain hold in my life that I can’t seem to brush off. That’s when I realized how much you make me feel vulnerable. And to be honest, I never felt this vulnerable for a very long time.
Others have tried to win me over, but it’s only you who captured my heart. It’s not something I say every day, but I definitely mean it every single time. And though I am not sure of what the future may hold, I’m just thankful that I won’t be facing it alone anymore. Thank you for giving me a new perspective. Thank you for proving me wrong when I said “all men are the same” and thank you for staying despite my deliberate actions to drive you away. It’s not easy dealing with a person who is as unpredictable and unstable as me, and yet you’ve been very understanding. And that’s one of the things that make me certain that you’re someone worth keeping.
I won’t be counting the days, i’ll just make each one count. Because I think I finally got it right this time around.